• To The Best Friend I Could Never Tell The Truth

    by  • March 11, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Friends • 3 Comments

    I promised I’d never lie to you…
    But when you asked me if I was okay, I said I was fine.
    When you asked me if I wanted to talk, I said I had nothing to say.
    When you asked what scared me, I told you I was fearless.
    And when you asked what you meant to me, I said that you were just a friend.

    These were the lies I told, along with many more.

    But the truth is…
    I am broken inside, and there is nothing you can do to fix me. I thought it would be selfish of me to let you try… But I have longed for your touch all this time.
    My heart is full of words that I have not the strength to say. To feel as strongly as I do is to face the world alone… For these thoughts, these feelings, are too great a burden for others to bear.
    I am terrified that I will one day be forgotten. That I will forever need you in my life, and you will not recall my name.
    You are the most important person in my life, and I love you more than words could ever express. You are the reason that I hold on to hope, that I hold on to this world and this life. Without you, I would lose my grasp on this world.

    And I miss you more than I will ever say.

    3 Responses to To The Best Friend I Could Never Tell The Truth

    1. hugs
      March 12, 2016 at 3:50 pm

      You make me fall in love again and again

    2. @Author
      March 13, 2016 at 10:27 pm

      Your words mean more to me than you’ll ever know. I’m sorry for not believing in you & it’s taken some time to come to understand why. It hurt when you said I was just a friend from what we were. Now I see how hard this must have been for you as well. Losing you is my biggest loss in life so far that’s how much you mean to me. You were a big part of my world. The most important part too for we were in love. I never wanted or tried to fix you. I bet you didn’t know that. I loved you for you & you & your so called flaws which were so few & far between. I’d like to say to you all the beautiful traits you have make you an amazing Woman. Your not broken, why because you’ve gone through so much that nobody deserves & still impresses how far you’ve come & accomplished. Remember what I used to say to you? Your remarkable. You never gave up & to me this shows how much courage & strength you have. I haven’t given up on your it I promised to never leave you especially when your feeling like this. You inspired me which I’m eternally greatfull for. I didn’t treat your tender heart with the love I have for you in the right way. I didn’t realise my words could do this & there’s no excuses when I became upset with you. personally & crumble. I must have reminded you of your past & those that had hurt you profusely & now you saw me as one of them. I saw it in your eyes that last time the horror that emerged. I practically died then & there when I saw what I had done to you. I’ve lived with knowing that everyday since. So I’ve gone & worked on this. Im never hurting anyone with my once past tense unfiltered motor mouth. I’ve got past fears too. I’m not an extrovert anymore.byhis is why I embarked on changing that bad trait. Otherwise it’ll keep happening in a vicious cycle.I’m getting there & I hope you are too. Im now a better understanding version. Your wrong in believing your a burden for I looked up to you(I’m much taller;) & what I saw through my eyes is a Woman who is so kind & compassionate, brighten everyone’s life whoever you saw for the light that shines effortlessly from your soul, you made me feel so loved & I’ve never felt so wanted by a woman. Wanting you & spending time with you was never a dull moment, for the first time in my life I was so happy & at content because whatever we did I loved it for I was able to spend that time with you. Everything that was ordinary was in fact extraordinary! Don’t leave my love as I promise you I’ll standby your side for you are still the woman who is my eternal flame.werevequally as important to me. Blind faith & hoping dauntlessly that we can move forward together as One, I miss you too my love, from dusk too dawn. Believe in you & I’ll believe in me then when we come together these wounds will disappear in time as our love is trimelesshu

    3. anonymous
      March 28, 2016 at 3:47 pm

      supposed you’re my best friend.

      being with you is a choice. i wanted to be with you,
      and when i said i want to stay,
      it means I’m staying in good and bad,
      cause i love you. you’re important, beyond explanation.
      if only you gave me the chance to make you feel better.
      its not fixing, its building something new to cover up the bad ones.
      too bad when you have so much to give,so much love to offer, but
      the only person you wanted to share it with doesn’t want you to be in his life.
      we could have been a great partners in crime, we could have been a great couple.
      for once in my life i got the chance to meet someone like you, someone who thinks almost exactly how i do.
      i feel that my soul connects to yours in some way, beyond explanation.
      i dont need to worry about anything about me when I’m with you. your my total Sanctuary.
      i can be silly with you. be vulnerable with you, be brave with you, be stupid with you.
      and i feel blessed when I’m with you. you gave me back the pride i almost lost.
      you make me feel that I’m still worthy of the love even in times i was not so lovable.
      you gave me so much more, than you think i gave you.
      you gave me back my life. i know its a bit late but i love you, 2 yrs now,
      i don’t know until when but ill be good..

      i miss you big time,
      (supposed you’re my best friend)

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