I promised I’d never lie to you…
But when you asked me if I was okay, I said I was fine.
When you asked me if I wanted to talk, I said I had nothing to say.
When you asked what scared me, I told you I was fearless.
And when you asked what you meant to me, I said that you were just a friend.
These were the lies I told, along with many more.
But the truth is…
I am broken inside, and there is nothing you can do to fix me. I thought it would be selfish of me to let you try… But I have longed for your touch all this time.
My heart is full of words that I have not the strength to say. To feel as strongly as I do is to face the world alone… For these thoughts, these feelings, are too great a burden for others to bear.
I am terrified that I will one day be forgotten. That I will forever need you in my life, and you will not recall my name.
You are the most important person in my life, and I love you more than words could ever express. You are the reason that I hold on to hope, that I hold on to this world and this life. Without you, I would lose my grasp on this world.
And I miss you more than I will ever say.