why do i only miss you
when you’re the only one to have ever broken my heart?
my heart was made for you
it was beating for you
it was broken, just for you
the only time i ever loved someone hard enough i was willing to put myself in this slingshot of pain
each day i loved you harder, i took a step back, hoping it wouldnt break
eventually my energy gave out. i could not hold myself and to my luck you decided to stop holding me too. i was shot metaphorically speaking
off and into the sea.
lonely, drowning in my sorrow i blamed myself because
it was i who made you stop loving me
it was i who made you feel guilty
it was i who made you stop caring
it was i….who let you go, in reality.
i would feel all the weight of this pain for myself
believing i was broken and bruised.
this slingshot of pain has given me scars and yes, brought years of my hearts decay too.
however, i soon realized its the sun at the center of our system. i cant feel so bad for myself when i was the one to hurt you. i am not the center, nor the only one broken and bruised. for you were there with me too.
this slingshot of pain had just enough room for two. and with us flying in different directions, you closer to the shore i didnt know what to do.
you did move on faster. with me still drowning and trying not to love you. so this is for you. its been years i know i havent really shown how i care for you.
i apologize for the damage ive done from right where we begun…. to now…
i truly am.. this is how im brave enough to show you. i pray your bruises are healed and your heart is whole. yes the damage ive done can not be undone but surly with time you will grow.