I wish I was the type of person who could genuinely wish for your future happiness, but I don’t believe in fake bullshit. You know that.
We have a long history and as I look back I know what kept me connected to you all those years. Hope.
I hoped that all the things you said to me were true. I told you in the end though, that no matter what you say or do, I know you do not care. It took a lot of negative experiences for me to come to that conclusion. It doesn’t matter if it’s true or not because that is what I was made to believe. So many times.
Everyone likes to feel special and you had a gift of making people feel that way. You also had a knack for assuring sunshine, yet bringing the worst hail, wind, rain and shit storms.
You will never comprehend how negatively you affected my life. You will never understand. I gave up on that long ago.
Your selfishness sickens me.
If there ever comes a time you wonder how I’m doing and want to hear my voice again, please feel this last bit of energy and know I’m better off without you in my life.
No sadness, no anger, no hatred will I feel for you. I will leave you with what you left me so many, many times.