Every now and then when I’m listening to a song, I get a flashback of memories when we spent our time together. Do you remember when we used to turn the music up real loud and turn down the windows? Do you remember exploring for fishing spots? Do you remember teaching me how to fish? I doubt I’m any good at it now since I’m out of practice. I just wonder sometimes what you, and the others all are getting up to and how you are all. I know it is all my fault everything crumbled apart. I just sometimes wish I could still be friends with you all. I miss talking on the phone planning all to hang out. I don’t have many people in my life anymore and maybe for the better but the connection we all shared was something big to me so when I lost it, my heart really broke and I honestly went right back to drinking. I sometimes still drink over it. Solid friends like that shouldn’t have to be broken like this. I wish you guys would see this and suggest to meet up and reunite for a bit to see if we can put the past in the past and move on to the future now. But I know no one would want that. I just wish it didn’t have to end this way. I haven’t been working hard on my mental health and just trying to be a better person. I think you’d all be kind of surprised to see how much different I am. Either way, I just wish you all the best and know I miss you. If you want to contact me, please respond to this!