The feeling is undeniable and invincible and cannot be destroyed or tamed. You could throw it into outer space, find the ends of the earth at its deepest darkest abyss and throw it there but it would still stay. The feeling is indestructible and uncontainable.
Lasting years that feel like lifetimes.
A love so consuming but that truly is hate, I hate you, I hate what you’ve done to me and who you’ve turned me into and what you’ve made me feel. If only you knew.
But in the same instant, I love you. I love how I feel at the best moments, I love looking into your eyes when you’re laughing. I love how my love for you has made me smarter and has grown me into who I am. If only you knew.
There is no balance or difference from the feelings, they are put into one. One feeling of a destructive, beautiful, sinful, exhillarting experience.
Take me into your arms as you did once before, I will fight to get there like I once was. A pure life full of suppression is worth nothing. Let my sins and darkness be exposed, be expressed, be set free. Here I am, nothing to hide.
Except my feelings for you. Which cannot ever even be whispered into atmosphere.
Talk about catastrophic.