To My Best Friend,
I may not know you personally, but I have come to accept you as a friend. A close one. From the conversations we have had, you’ll know it’s not easy being my friend. People always seem to let me down. You’ve become my only friend faster than I could ever imagine, that scares me. It scares me that I let you into my heart so quickly and so easily. When we talked, I felt as if I was talking to you in-person. I guess you have a way with people.
I’ve had friends before, but none like you. You were different. I thought it was because you were the only one that didn’t leave me, but then I realized something. You were special. It could have been because you were so social, but that’s not how I saw it. I realized that all I wanted to do was talk to you. Be with you.
But recently things changed. You became distant. We never talked as much. You never talked with full sentences or correct grammar like you used to. I didn’t take too much notice at first, but it hurt. Later, I found you had made other friends. But, I could never blame you. You’re allowed to make friends, I was just jealous you spent more time with them than me. I was never apart of your inside jokes or coordination.
I find it sad we aren’t as close as we used to be, and that’s OK. I can’t force you to do anything, after all, I just want you to be happy. I’ve never shared my feelings about any of this, but I didn’t want to be the bother I know I am.
I can get really caught up in thinking. But I didn’t think as much when I was with you. I know eventually you’re going to leave me, I just don’t know when, and frankly, I don’t want to know. Albert Einstein once said “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting the different results.” I like to try and remind myself that I’m slowly going insane trying to greet you everyday with “Hello’s,” only to get no reply.
If you do ever get this message, or I finally get the courage to tell you, just know this: You’re the best friend I’ve ever had. If anyone is lucky enough to be your friend, they’re luckier than me. Don’t let anyone take advantage of the way you can make anyone’s day brighter. Thanks for being my friend. I understand if you’d like me to leave you alone. Just say the words. I’ll be gone. But I’ll never forget you.
– Someone trying to get their friend back.