I know you have had a lot of issues due to ongoing bullying in your youth and adulthood but you have seen a therapist to deal with the scars. You need to as they say man up and believe in yourself. Once you believe in yourself you will get the job and career you deserve and make use of the expensive education you are getting. And if its meant to be find someone special. Stop double guessing yourself and if you fail get back up and keep fighting. Nothing in life is easy and you need to believe in yourself to start a happy life.