• I thought you were the Exception

    by  • February 20, 2016 • Cheating • 1 Comment

    I still can’t fathom the thought of you two together. Well, I can, but I can’t fathom the thought of you allowing it to happen. I can picture two bodies; yours and hers. I can painfully imagine your lips touching and her mouth on you. I can see the scene vividly. But I can’t see what’s in your mind. What is in your mind? What were you thinking when you were with her? I can’t fathom that. Were you thinking about me? Were you ever, at all, guilty? What about our daughter? She isen’t even born yet. She’s…I am so innocent. Did you ever feel sick to your stomach when you fucked her then came home to OUR bed? Did you ever feel disgusted when yo9u still kissed my lips when you kissed hers? Did yo9u ever rthink how fucked up you were? Hoiw fucked up you mind is? What is your mind? What is your thoughts? Because I can see you fucking her but I can’t see WHY. I can’t see that. I can’t. You can try to explain but you9 can’t. You’re afriad to tell me why. And if you tell me why how can I trust your feelings? HOW?
    I saw you differernt from other men,. I saw you as if you would never hurt me. Not like this. Not this way. Not with Isabel coming in April. No. You were the exception. You were the that fucking light in my life/ Or so I thought/. YOU ARE JUST LIKE THEM. YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT> And thats what hurts…thats what hurts the most. Because I thought you were different. Because I thought you were different. I gave you everything you ever needed, wanted. Did she give you any of that? Was she worth all of this? WAS SHE? What is in your mind…who is is your mind…who are you…

    One Response to I thought you were the Exception

    1. Sarah
      May 2, 2016 at 4:56 pm

      I love this letter. So harsh, yet so poetic. Exactly how I feel. Thank you.

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