Honestly, I don’t even know what I’m waiting for. I love you. I fucking love you okay? I’ve never said that to someone. Those words belong to you now. I love you. I don’t know why it’s taken so long for us me get to this point. The only thing I’ve ever wanted was you. It was always you. The fact that it took me almost twenty years to get to this point is astounding. I’ve never liked anyone else seriously. Every time I started to have feelings, you were always in the back of my mind. Always. For as long as I can remember, it’s always been you. I don’t care that your friends don’t like me. I don’t care that your brother doesn’t like me. The only person whose opinion has ever mattered to me is yours. Not once have I ever thought of having a serious future with anyone but you. You are the fixed point in my life. My same. My everything. Every step taken in this life has always led me back to you and if you can’t love me back, I need to know. I need to know so I can learn to finally get on without you. It hurts me to think of what we could be because I’m fucking scared that I’ll mess it up and lose you. I’m scared you won’t ever feel the same way. I’m fucking terrified to love you. Fucking. Terrified. But I love you with every part of me and I just really needed you to know that.