• I wish I could tell you…

    by  • February 14, 2016 • Love - Pure and Simple • 2 Comments

    Honestly, I don’t even know what I’m waiting for. I love you. I fucking love you okay? I’ve never said that to someone. Those words belong to you now. I love you. I don’t know why it’s taken so long for us me get to this point. The only thing I’ve ever wanted was you. It was always you. The fact that it took me almost twenty years to get to this point is astounding. I’ve never liked anyone else seriously. Every time I started to have feelings, you were always in the back of my mind. Always. For as long as I can remember, it’s always been you. I don’t care that your friends don’t like me. I don’t care that your brother doesn’t like me. The only person whose opinion has ever mattered to me is yours. Not once have I ever thought of having a serious future with anyone but you. You are the fixed point in my life. My same. My everything. Every step taken in this life has always led me back to you and if you can’t love me back, I need to know. I need to know so I can learn to finally get on without you. It hurts me to think of what we could be because I’m fucking scared that I’ll mess it up and lose you. I’m scared you won’t ever feel the same way. I’m fucking terrified to love you. Fucking. Terrified. But I love you with every part of me and I just really needed you to know that.

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    2 Responses to I wish I could tell you…

    1. @author
      February 16, 2016 at 3:00 am

      It’s OK to be scared. It’s a Good thing to be cautious. But running from it isn’t the answer. If you truly Love this person then working through it together would be the best. Maybe your person is scared also. Maybe they would like to have help in figuring out what to do. Maybe they are needing you just as much. What if they are truly in love with you? Being scared is normal when your feelings run deep. It’s easier to figure things out together, rather than pushing the feelings back and trying to fight it. I wish this letter was written for me, because I too am in a situation where my feelings are having to be suppressed because things ended so suddenly. I would Love if they would want to figure things out together, even if they didn’t feel the way I felt. I don’t even know if I ever cross their mind anymore. I’ve had no choice to figure things out, they have made it clear what they want.

      Best wishes


    2. @@Author
      February 17, 2016 at 1:13 am

      I do…I did. I never ran. I walked away as thats what she said. So I did. And then she expected me to crawl back when she couldn’t reach out. No.

      Best Wishes. I loved you. To this very second & this is the end because you made it so & now so shall I:(



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