• Love Triangle

    by  • February 13, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 6 Comments

    Sometimes it feels like you’re not even here. How did you get so far away from me? Deep down I know that I was the one that created the distance. I did it for myself I hope you know, I did it for us. All you see is this bright future for us, marriage, kids. How could you be so blind? Open your eyes, maybe you’ll start to see that that I’m finally fading. You make it so easy to disappear. The hole you’re digging for yourself is getting deeper and you’re sitting at the bottom with mud caked hands while I gaze down from the top. I was in the hole too, but I was smart enough to climb my way out before it got too deep. His arms were long and strong enough to pull me up. Can’t you see what you’re doing to us? If you would have just left the shovel on the ground lying next to the shed, we would have been okay. I thought you were everything. Instead you are nothing. All I see is this immature little boy who forgot the growing up part of maturity. There are layers to people. Some have so many while others have only few. You see, you have less than few. You’re just a person that is trying to fit in and makes himself like all those other guys. Why can’t you be something more? Someone with so many layers it takes years to count them all. That is why I crave someone other than you. Him. His layers go deeper than I can dig, I peel back one and another one comes to the surface. He UNDERSTANDS. Being understood is the most important thing in a relationship. So how am I supposed to keep pretending that you get me when you never will. There are shades of me that I will never show you that he has already seen. I try to be strong with you but with him I’m so weak and vulnerable. Vulnerability shows you how comfortable around a person and how much you care. I would give anything to make you understand me like he does. It is like he is the person I fall back on when I need support, and that is so key to getting by in life, you need those type of people. But what do you do when your boyfriend isn’t one of them?

    But here’s the catch- I love you. Plan and simple. I love you like there is no tomorrow. Like the sun has left the sky and all we have is you and I. There are no ends to how much I love you. But you’re killing me. He is killing me. I love him too. And it surprises me how much you can love someone when all you’ve felt is the graze of their hand. He is innocent and sensitive and real. I’ve felt all of you, you’ve felt all of me. But what does it mean to do things with you but have him on my mind. I’m the true definition of a hypocrite. How can love become so evil all of a sudden? We were so good before. He was just my best friend, nothing more. How can things change so quickly with no notice?

    I didn’t see him coming. And I certainly never saw you leaving.

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    6 Responses to Love Triangle

    1. Today Is Valentines Day
      February 13, 2016 at 1:28 pm

      How can you say you did it for both of you when your actually making your own judgment? I’m fading because of what you’ve done, no other reason. Then for you to say he has pulled me out of the mud you helped create? Did he/I know about this other man? I highly doubt it. That’s emotionally cheating if that’s the case. How could he trust you if this is how you act? That’s cheating. Speaking of layers have you thought that he has a multitude of layers yet he’s felt you’ve never asked or talked to him like this. I don’t remember any times this occurred. Maybe he/I wasn’t as venerable because of his doubt/questioning you when certain questions you answered didn’t add up? Now proven by your own admission. I felt it immediately if you must know. Another clue who you are is saying “Hypocrite”. Am I right? So those other letters were you! And you knew & pretended it wasn’t. We were more than good we were close to perfect until you, not me pulled away many months ago? That is when it all changed. It was so obvious & I spoke to you about this. That is when you changed not me. What became of me was because of how hurt I was because something was wrong which youve confirmed everything I’ve said. Which I already knew deep down. How can you honestly speak like this to me? Your indirectly blaming me, now throwing this in my face, wanting to hear for the right answer so you can choose between two men. I feel sorry for him as well. How can you love me when you’ve been with another man? How? Emotionally at least. I’d guess physically too? I’d like to be wrong? I have never in my life been treated like this & if this is you you would be able to say this on the phone or given what we had the respect saying this too my face, not here! By saying this here you’ve treated our “love” like a game. I’m not mad or upset, astounded yes, no more like yes my gut feelings were right. I’ve had to grieve losing you for many months. If you really cared why the silence. You’ve not being silent with him? That’s obvious. I believed in you till this very moment? I want to still & Its not me who needs to prove this love. Your words aren’t in sync with your actions. It’s Valentines Day today & this is the one clue you’ll know it’s me? I had Peonies flown interstate on the minuscule chance because your favourite colours aren’t available here, one for every year of your life. I love you & after all I’ve just said you’ll not be choosing me I feel. You’ll probably not even answer back. Why, because Im standing up for myself out of self respect. If you love me unconditionally as I do you for I have done all
      I could do, then the onus is on you to prove to me not the other way around. How can you prove this. Ring me when you read this & we’ll arrange a time to see each other. If I don’t hear from you the day when this is posted then I shall take this as your answer.




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    2. Last comment for I'm out of here
      February 17, 2016 at 2:17 am

      Yeah its easy to get pulled out of the void when into the opposite sexes hands. That is easy to do & I could have done the same many times these past few months. What an idiot I’ve been. All the things you told me sadly confirms to yourself that you are. What you told me then which any man would have run in an instant. I haven’t ever mentioned this…I won’t. You’ll chase the one thing you’ll never have until you become the good you not the you who has let all the hurt cloud her thoughts because its easier. Is his name Nate by chance? Who cares for you don’t. you want you cake and eat it too. Now I’m upset. Karma no good luck to you.




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    3. it's sad
      February 17, 2016 at 2:35 pm

      I’m facing the same issue with my person. I am worth more than a mind game. If I’m not respected enough for explanation, phone call, text, then the only thing I can do is move forward. I’ve called them, sent texts, even Played the mind games here. I’ve put my pride aside and practically begged for a response. I just need to move forward and realize they just used me as a curiosity satisfaction. They found out what they needed to, then left. It’s been months of me hanging on. The sad part is I fell deeper for them than they did me. I have to say they are tough to get over, but now that it’s been a few months, I’m going numb to it all. I will not let anyone take my happy, though this person damn near did. I’ve probably given them a good laugh, but I’m OK with that. As long as they were happy then no big deal. At least I know I would’ve kept my promise if I had been given the chance. It’s time to start living again and not hoping anymore. I don’t wish anything but good things for my person. I will always be here for them. I just won’t chase anymore. If I am important enough to that person then they will contact me. If I’m not important enough, It was probably for the best. I hope you find what your seeking @ today is Valentine’s Day response.

      Best wishes




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    4. @It's Sad
      February 19, 2016 at 6:46 am

      My sentiments exactly for I wrote the “Valentines day” response. I felt touched when you spoke of “keeping your promise” for I too have waited & done much to be a better man these last months. No I didn’t find what I was seeking…to reconnect with her. I did everything that you did so we both did our best & at least we know that. Still miss her yet I can’t live in hope & deserve better just as you do. Best wishes. That’s your trademark I’ve noticed.

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    5. A tale of two men
      February 28, 2016 at 5:04 am

      Is this the messge you refer to? I have been made aware of it.
      I never cheated, nor did it even cross my mind during our time. I did not speak to other guys, flirt or anything of the kind.
      There was only ONE!!!
      Best wishes
      ~AAA~

      P.S




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    6. Tis True
      July 8, 2016 at 4:31 pm

      SO long ago now. It’s the first time I used the related articles. I see ~AAA~ again. Many a time we responded back & forth. Admitting you were her at one stage. Then denying it. Funnily enough she did speak to other guys. Caught up for “coffee dates”….only she never told me she did these things. they were JUST friends. BUT you didn’t ever tell me about them…..HMM…oh plus the time she pocket called me. I heard it all. LOL. This she said herself to make me jealous. It didn’t. It proved me right. That was the second last time I talked to her.




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