Do you know what it’s like to have so much love/passion pent up for a person that your body literally aches,and longs for them? Look it’s not just about sex with me. What I’m talking about is Love so deep that it physically effects your physical being. Being away from that person makes your heart hurt. Your mind is so consumed with thoughts of the person, non stop, day to day activities become more,it is a desperate yell for help just to try and quiet the mind of that person. Every time you reach out to the person, the silence in return is like a vice grip being tightened around the heart! Thinking about being around that person makes your skin get hot flash and rapid heart beat! Laying in bed thinking about making Love to the person causes heavy breathing, rapid heart beat, aching so intense your hips can’t help but move! When you stand up to try and clear your mind, your light headed as if you’ve had been drinking but you haven’t. This person I’m talking about is YOU.
Physically I can’t do this much longer!
I have a feeling this is taking its toll on me!
I know you have let me go already.
You have made it clear you don’t want to communicate. I don’t know what your going through, you won’t tell me. Your not letting me be there for you. You walked away from us with no explanation. I’m starting to think the only way to get over you is to expose myself to others. I’ve had my chances. I passed them up becUse I was still feeling dedicated to you. I don’t know why I just do. But I don’t see why I keep hanging on to someone who won’t give me the time of day. I am accepting that you don’t want us anymore. It hurts but im a survivor. Maybe that’s what it’s going to take, getting out in the world again. I love you deeply but I’m also realizing you can’t make someone Love you back. I am tired of reaching out only to be ignored. I am always here for you always. But I need to finish healing, I’m probably way behind you in the healing area. For all I know you have moved on to another woman. I’m left with only what if. I wish you the happiness you seek. But now I have to focus on moving forward, don’t think it’s because I didn’t want to be with you anymore. You have forced my hand to have to move forward. I Love you enough to let you go! Because that’s what you’ve made clear you want.