But I will never tell you. Although I have a suspicion you already know.
He neglects me. I love him and do my best to please him, but it’s just not reciprocated. I think he lives a lie because I am never ever quite enough, and honest to God we all know I’m more than enough. So there is my answer. It truly breaks my heart.
And you and I spent so much time together, that I sincerely grew to love you. Unexpectedly. I’m not in love with you per say. I’ve paid attention when it was just you and I and I don’t get those feelings. There is no odd or awkward attraction, but I do love you. In a familial way, I suppose. I had to figure it out and I did. But I love you more than I should. So I’m sorry for burdening you when I do. I try not to. And I do have plenty of other friends. But, you, I love the most, I guess.
So wish me luck. Pray for me. I deserve as much as I give. But at this rate I will love him not quite enough to his liking (which is more than he deserves at this point). Or cheat, which is against my morales. But I get too much attention not to. And he could care less, frankly.
But my point is, I see you have an awesome relationship, and I would never interfere, but I do love you and want the best for you. I am just having issues now I can’t tell you about. So please be patient with me.
I’m doing my best to never need a soul again.
But, you, I love. So I hope to keep you in my life, on some level. And I really hope you keep me in yours.