I obviously have hit a bad nerve with you again and you are not telling me anything until you blow up at me and say I did and said things I did not say. Your anger stems from something deeper perhaps. It took me awhile to get back here, to put my guard down, I want to feel safe and trust you with me, my heart. You had brought me back to you and then once again crushed me. I would never hurt you. You know you say mean things, things that hurt so bad, so deep. Apparently, I have once again become a room mate to you because of my lack of being involved in our relationship? That in theory is the way you feel about me and not actually anything I have done. “You wish you never came to visit me in the beginning and you hate relationships, it’s only obvious.” These were your words, pretty much verbatim. I am not involved enough to be your partner as you feel I do nothing and you are alone in all of this. I confuse you and you appeared disgusted at me. I don’t demand anyone to do anything and you know that. I understand if you want to be in no relationship, I can no longer defend myself against you. Everything I do is wrong and everything I don’t do is wrong. I am not enough of anything for you. I feel that you aren’t being real with me, you are saying you have emotions that aren’t there. I apologize if I have ever come across as someone you couldn’t be truthful to. I never asked you to pretend that you care about me. I could only imagine how miserable this is making you. The text I send you all day, pouring myself onto you and the times I just wanna hold your hand to feel your heartbeat through your fingertips, I guess you were hoping to eventually have the feeling of undying love for me as well. I thought things were going well, my illusions sometimes get the best of me, because that is what I want to believe. I must have been smothering. I had no clue you have some sort of grudge or harsh thoughts about me. I too am sorry you ever had to fake anything around me or to me.