• Crushed

    by  • February 5, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 3 Comments

    I obviously have hit a bad nerve with you again and you are not telling me anything until you blow up at me and say I did and said things I did not say. Your anger stems from something deeper perhaps. It took me awhile to get back here, to put my guard down, I want to feel safe and trust you with me, my heart. You had brought me back to you and then once again crushed me. I would never hurt you. You know you say mean things, things that hurt so bad, so deep. Apparently, I have once again become a room mate to you because of my lack of being involved in our relationship? That in theory is the way you feel about me and not actually anything I have done. “You wish you never came to visit me in the beginning and you hate relationships, it’s only obvious.” These were your words, pretty much verbatim. I am not involved enough to be your partner as you feel I do nothing and you are alone in all of this. I confuse you and you appeared disgusted at me. I don’t demand anyone to do anything and you know that. I understand if you want to be in no relationship, I can no longer defend myself against you. Everything I do is wrong and everything I don’t do is wrong. I am not enough of anything for you. I feel that you aren’t being real with me, you are saying you have emotions that aren’t there. I apologize if I have ever come across as someone you couldn’t be truthful to. I never asked you to pretend that you care about me. I could only imagine how miserable this is making you. The text I send you all day, pouring myself onto you and the times I just wanna hold your hand to feel your heartbeat through your fingertips, I guess you were hoping to eventually have the feeling of undying love for me as well. I thought things were going well, my illusions sometimes get the best of me, because that is what I want to believe. I must have been smothering. I had no clue you have some sort of grudge or harsh thoughts about me. I too am sorry you ever had to fake anything around me or to me.

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    3 Responses to Crushed

    1. @ author
      February 5, 2016 at 11:30 am

      You haven’t done anything wrong! I am not mad at you! I would text you but deleted your number because I thought you wanted ME to! Will you text ME? I love you and you havent done anything wrong!




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    2. @ author
      February 5, 2016 at 11:38 am

      I never faked anything. My feelings are that I am in Love with you and want us to work on us!

      Love to the core




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    3. @author
      February 6, 2016 at 11:31 am

      How do think I feel as time goes by & I still don’t see you. This can’t go on like this & that’s because of you? Out Undying love is real. Not here it isn’t. Talking in front of each other will solve everything. To what’ we did or didn’t do. This confusion would stop because there would be none. You believe I don’t care? See what I mean by your confusion not just mine. I’m done here for we’re adults & in saying this…if you want what I want, for there’s nothing more in life I desire beyond my wildest dreams-YOU. It’s always been you & always will. The rest is up to YOU.




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