Honestly I miss you so much. I see you in everyone and everything. Then they will say or do something and I realize it’s not you. There is no way to find you, I am stuck. I can’t go back to everyday life and being a nurse. I don’t know if that’s you with your new family or what, the whole thing is so confusing. I hope you are happy because that would honestly provided by with some happiness. I hope someday I can find someone who wants to know my heart and soul like I thought you did, I am not sure know if that was an illusion or not because you never say anything. I want someone to talk too and a partner. Good luck with your family and new baby on the way. I was supposed to be a sex God in a body. I’m tired now.