• Thank you and goodbye

    by  • September 29, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Goodbye • 0 Comments

    Its almost been 5 years since we broke up, but I still find myself thinking about you, wondering what happend between and if it was my fault…

    Today I found myself again, sitting infront of a computer looking at the day I knew that something was going on but I was to scared to do anything about it. Still even today, looking at that update on your social media page, feeling the pain I felt that morning comes back and all I can do is to live with the feeling of betrayal, the feeling of being lied to and of knowing that every time you said you loved me, you told him you loved him more…

    It took me a while to get over you, trust me, there were days that I thought that I should just go and jump off a bridge because then the pain I have with in my body and mind will be gone… but I could never get myself to be so childish… so selfish…
    There were days where I thought that I could just go to you and just somehow everything would be back to how it was the day I first met you… But somewhere deep in me I knew that all was over… that the love that we once had has faded into a deep dark hole…

    I remember the day we last spoke, the last time you told me you loved me with tears in our eyes… even though it was over a message, I knew it was over and that I had to go and never contact you again…

    Today its been 5 years… We both have moved on… I heard you married that person who you told me was just a friend and Im happy for you, I promise I am… I pray you both have more happy days than sad ones, and that he can give you everything I never could…

    Today I found myself looking at your photo and today I am letting go of everything…

    This letter is to say goodbye, this letter is to finally move on to the next step.

    5 years is a long time to keep feelings in and to not be able to say how I felt… and even though you will never read this letter, I know I can move on with the person I love today.

    thank you for teaching me how to love and how to be a better person.

    Goodbye

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