Where do I start? How do I say what I’m actually feeling? I’ve never been good with words so this should be kind of interesting. Well I guess I’m going to start by saying I miss you. I hate how distant we are now. It kills me watching you getting your heart broken by guys who don’t even deserve a second of your time. It kills me even more to realize I was once one of those guys. I can’t believe it’s been 3 years since I’ve told you that I love you, even though I still do. God I wish I could bring myself to tell you that I still do. You have no idea (and probably never will) how much I want to be the guy that makes you smile again. I just can’t risk putting you through more hurt, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. You are the reason that I haven’t pursued any other relationship. Not for the normal reasons people normally have but because I don’t think I’ll be able to find another girl like you. You don’t know how amazing you really are. I hope one day I can find the courage to tell you how I really feel but by then you’ll probably find somebody a million times better than me. It’s sad that I have to resort to using an anonymous letter to say how I feel about you. I really don’t know what to say anymore. You’ll always be my first love reguardless of how we end up. I hope you find happiness in everything you do, you deserve nothing but the best.