• i’m broken

    by  • September 20, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 4 Comments

    i’m so broken

    i feel like i’m going to get punished


    one day.

    i’m tired

    all three of them…

    one of them is possessive,

    one of them can’t express themselves,

    and the last of them is awkward

    … i’m scared

    4 Responses to i’m broken

    1. Peter C
      September 22, 2015 at 6:47 pm

      I’m so sorry that you feel broken and scared. If I could create for you one warm & caring person who could mend the scars and keep you safe, take the fear away, I would.

      I wonder if there is any situation, any place where you feel less broken, less scared? I wonder if there are times in your past, perhaps very long ago as a child, that you were not yet broken, that you still felt brave and courageous? Sometimes I think we have to hunt through our scattered confused lives like archaeologists, like treasure hunters, to find things long forgotten that may yet save us. I think it starts with the stories; look for the stories. I hope you do.

    2. September 22, 2015 at 8:22 pm

      hey i am here if you need to talk

    3. Anonymous in nc
      September 23, 2015 at 8:18 pm

      Dear Broken:

      Are you saying there are three separate personality’s?

      If so….I believe I know someone who also suffers from this same living hell. My heart breaks everytime I hear what one of them says to the others. He drinks to cope with his hell and goes into the deepest of depressions. One of his alters is extroverted and the other is very introverted. He warned me he was broken early on but I couldn’t help it…I fell in love with him….all of him and the alter. I love them both.

      I don’t ever give up just because something is hard. So I will continue to fight for him every minute of everyday. I am not under the illusion that I can fix him….on the contrary….I love him just as he is. I do hope he can get the depression under control and learn more about coexisting with the other alter for his own health and safety.

      I’m telling you this with the hope that you will see that just because you consider yourself broken, you can still be loved deeply and completely. I also hope you can learn to control your alters and have them work together. This will take a lot of help, understanding and unfortunately work. I happen to believe love can be a big help too.

      Do you have someone special in your life? I know that others with alters and depression often push folks away sometimes subconsciously sometimes on purpose. They think they are saving other people from living with the misery only they can bring. I also believe they feel unworthy of other people’s love. You ARE worthy!!! And there are people in this life who can hold your hand and love you. You may have to face a lot of discomfort and fighting within yourself to allow yourself to be loved. You’ll have to teach him/her about what you experience and if they live you truly….they might just stick around the rest of your life!

      There are no accidents in this world….there is a reason for every person who you feel positive energy with. There are tons of someone’s out there but there is likely only a few chances to meet someone your soul can’t be without. That connection….that chord.

      Please write back.

      Not so anonymous in NC…..my.name is Trina.

    4. Anonymous in nc
      September 23, 2015 at 8:31 pm

      I’m sorry… I didn’t proof read before I pressed the button. Will you please correct my mispellings.? I spelled personalities wrong and I think when I meant “love”/I accidentally bit the ” I” and so it became lives. I appreciate you help in advance and I appreciate your work here on this website. Please don’t post this request for corrections 🙂

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