I feel so terrible when you tell me you love me because I don’t know what to think anymore. I know I love you too, but maybe it’s not exactly the same love it used to be? We’ve been through so much ups and downs lately and I feel myself starting to fall for him. I’m yelling at myself to stop, but I can’t. It’s not longer your texts that I sit waiting for; it’s his. And you have no idea how incredibly terrible that makes me feel. I’m committed to you, we have been together for almost a year now. What am I supposed to do? You treat me like gold, you give me everything I have ever wanted. What if loving you is enough? What if it is what I need? Right now it doesn’t feel right, it feels guilty. I feel so guilty because I cant control my feelings for him. I never have been able to. The cold hard fact is I have liked him since you and I started dating. Do I stay with you but always wonder what could have been with him? You are amazing. But I’m not sure that you’re what I need anymore. And that fact alone makes me feel like a horrible person. I don’t know how I could ever break your heart when you’re so fragile already. You’re my best friend, but are you still my lover? We’ve come so far to where we are, and I feel a certain responsibility to not give up on us. But I don’t know because what if I never find someone that treats me as well as you do? What if this other guy isn’t what I thought he would be for a boyfriend? I’m so confused. I’m so blinded by what is right and what is wrong. But in this situation is there really a right and a wrong? Love makes everything blurred and unclear. What the hell am I gonna do.