14 years is a long time… I thought you would be here with me my entire life, everybody thinks that about their siblings. Ivy, you were an amazing person, beyond what most people will ever have any concept of. I miss you. It is comforting to see your journal, what you wrote about me, saddening as well. Fuck, you had so much potential & motivation, you cared so much about so many things… you were the sort of person who would have changed the world if only you had stuck around it for a while longer. I’m going to quit smoking. Cigarettes anyways. Maybe I’m going to get into science, I really feel an obligation to try to better the world & be more than an accountant. I don’t know how my girlfriend is going to feel about it when I tell her but I’m telling you first. I’m not going to study business anymore. I love you & I miss you.