Isn’t it funny how differently you see people once you begin to fall in love with them? As if your feelings have covered your eyes with a filter, and you see things as if you’re experiencing the sense of sight for the first time.
How had I never noticed your beautiful eyes? I had sat across from you at work lunches a couple of times, interacted with you a dozen times. But I will never forget the first time I truly looked into your eyes, and it took my breath away. Not only by their physical appearance, but because they do nothing to hide the immense sea of thoughts spinning behind them. Made all the more enchanting by the fact that I didn’t know what those thoughts were — but I knew I could spend all of my time finding out.
It’s funny to look back at the assumptions you had about someone before you truly knew them. It reminds you that essentially all of our assumptions about people are no closer to reality than the other figments of our imaginations.
I made a lot of assumptions about you. I thought you would seem older than you do. I thought you were more serious than you are. It’s hard to specify what the assumptions were, other than wrong. In sum, I thought you were less “everything I was looking for” than you actually are. Because you are everything.
It’s funny to think back to sitting across from you during those work lunches. I never would have guessed that by Sept. 16, things would look the way they do. I never would have guessed that I could feel so much for you.
I didn’t know that you were an infinite array of beautiful complexities that I would be eager to spend the rest of my life learning by heart.