• I love you..and I know you don’t care

    by  • September 16, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning for You • 2 Comments

    I fell in love that first day. The moment I saw your face and your eyes looked into mine and I knew. You stole me and you didn’t even know it. But when you started speaking to the class, you looked at me more than I thought a professor would normally look at a student, and you smiled, and your eyes had fire, and I thought that maybe I had stolen you too. That maybe I had you, but I just didn’t know it. And I allowed myself to think that for awhile, to dream about the day when we both could say what we already knew: that we belonged together. I felt that stabbing heart pain you get when you’re in love, when you feel pain because when you think of them you know that you can’t have them….and I realized you had someone else. She lives with you, she looks like you do. She looks nice. You look happy in the picture. I wonder if she makes you happy. She probably does. I’m glad you’re happy…and I don’t hate her. If she makes you happy, then I’m glad you have her, but I wish I was her, I wish she was me. I know you don’t care. I’m your student, probably not even a student you like. I’m just another face, not memorable to you, and that’s okay.
    Mark, I want you to love me. I want to you kiss me and tell me nothing matters but you and me, I want you to tell me that you can see i’m more than some woman taking your course, but that i am your spirit reflected, and you are mine. But you won’t say that, and I’ll never tell you it’s what I want. Because you love her, and I want you to be happy.
    I love you Mark. I love you so much it makes my heart hurt. I hope it never stops.

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    2 Responses to I love you..and I know you don’t care

    1. wow
      September 17, 2015 at 8:19 am

      Whoa creepy…


    2. Heather
      September 17, 2015 at 11:35 pm

      I know. It’s why I’ll never tell him. It is creepy, but I needed to get it out. But I won’t make him experience it. Thanks for responding, it’s nice to know at least someone has heard what I said.



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