I never really saw myself where I am today
In a good way, and a bad
I always saw myself where you were
Time and time again you gave me bits and pieces of the big picture of destruction you caused
Until all at once you tore me limb from limb
But no, there is no more sadness
There is no more pain
It’s kind of strange though, I will admit
For you to continue on in your place
To see my family continue to participate
In a way, it gives me a sense of freedom and strength
For you to still see them, but not me
I haven’t made a single appearance, and I know it’s left you wondering
Even though you know the answer
I may have been told that I am showing weakness, that I am letting evil win
That I am letting you win
No, I absolutely am not weak
I am not letting anyone win
I am the winner
I have won
This is my victory
The victory I needed for so long
And I am so happy
Are you happy now?
I guess that is the question.
Does my absence bring you happiness?
Does it bring everyone there happiness?
Maybe. I have realized that if this is the case, then I am at peace with it.
For you all to be happy with me leaving, then you were never people I should’ve spent years with anyway.
I still will remember the “good” moments,
Which were all completely bad, but still amazing in my state of mind during those times
Those highs of limerence, wonderful
Here I am, feeling better about myself then I ever have
I don’t have any unrealistic impossible loves in my life
In fact, there isn’t a single one
This is the first time that I can say,
I don’t love you
Sure, I haven’t seen you in months
What’s to say that just the sight of you wouldn’t bring my feelings surging back?
Of course it would, that’s the way it works with you
But as for now, I don’t plan on seeing you again
And if I ever saw you in a store,
I’d walk the other way
If you tried to speak to me,
I’d simply walk away
Poor you, lost in your labyrinth of hurt and pain
Must’ve been, to make you the monster clothed in light that you are
One day, five years from now I want to run into you somewhere
And I’ll look straight at you, and tell you
“You never truly knew what you did and what you’ve done
No matter what pain I felt
No matter how many times I cried
Regardless of the fact that you have never apologized, and never will
No matter how many wrongs you’ve done
I forgive you
I forgive you because I’m strong
I forgive you because I’m stronger then you are.”
And that would be it