You often neglect my presence and when I can’t stand the pain, I will try to walk away but you would always come chasing me.
I wanted to neglect you too so that you will experience what I feel, but I just can’t do it right now. My love for you is so strong that whatever you did that hurts as hell will be forgotten by my mind whenever we’re talking. I think I’m on denial stage where I think nobody wants to hurt somebody by purpose especially if you love them.
I don’t even have the courage to tell you how hurt I am with your actions. I always pretend that everything is bearable when actually I am experiencing a slow death inside.
On sleepless lonely nights or awaken at wee hours by nightmares, my brain remembered it all. I remember all the pains but my stubborn heart simply won’t listen to my brain.
The next time you would try to neglect my presence again, I hope I would have the courage to walk away and never look back. Not to hurt you but to protect myself from being hurt by you… again and again.