It’s been awhile since I’ve written you. No matter, you’ve still remembered me, given me advice, given me courage, and been there for me sometimes when I really needed you. I can’t tell you how much that means to me. Don’t think I don’t notice.
It is a little funny, some of the things you say, just the timing of it. It’s amazing how people who don’t even talk to each other can still be on the same issue, if not the same page. I’m not ready to see you. That’s probably on both of us a little bit. But I want you to know, that in some ways, I have a relationship with you that I’ve never been able to have with my birth mother. The two of you are different in some ways; but very very similar in some others. Mostly good things. Like the way you feel about your children. That they are your entire life. I can’t tell you how much I admire you for that. I can only imagine that your birth children have your full, unconditional support in all things, and I firmly believe that someone’s mother is at least the one person someone should be able to rely on that for. I think you are a great Mom. Just for me, I know, you have really taken me in in some ways. Ways no one else would probably notice. But I do, and will never forget.
I hope you know, with whatever you say to me, whether or not I agree, I still really listen. Some of the things you say, for like the first few seconds, I actually think you’re saying on my behalf. Like you could switch a couple gender pronouns and that’s EXACTLY how I feel. I then quickly realize on whose behalf you’re truly advocating; and believe me, I would never expect or hope so otherwise. Rather, I thank God she has you in her life, and that you two are close. What I’m trying to say is that I think she and I feel the same way about a lot of things and we just don’t realize it.
I’m hoping that you can acknowledge that my feelings, even and maybe particularly if you don’t agree with them, are nonetheless completely valid and legitimate. Maybe someday we can discuss, the theoretical possibility that, as a human being, she might occasionally be possible of being the one in the wrong, you know from time to time. No? Didn’t think so 🙂
Your oldest son