Dear M________ ,
First of all, I’ll always love you.
Secondly, I’m aware you have a boyfriend and you messaged me that if I ever contact you again that you’ll get the police involved.
You also blocked me and I don’t have your number.
Okay…so let’s say I surprised you…
That could go a few different ways:
Understand, I don’t like your boyfriend, not even a little bit. No offense to you though, because I’m sure you like him for some reason. He is not my friend, he’s never been my friend, nor will he ever be my friend. I am not willing to hang out with your boyfriend period. I thought it was ridiculous when it was suggested we should all hang out last year..
The sight of your boyfriend honestly gets my blood boiling sometimes. He gives off bad vibes in my opinion.
But that’s enough about your boyfriend, let’s say I came up to your University and I somehow ended up at the same party as you or something of that nature.
Let’s say I confronted you, told you I loved you, and then your boyfriend decided to start something with me.
Would you want me to be literally be ‘the bigger man’? Or would you want me to actually physically fight your boyfriend? I would not want to fight your boyfriend, but if he punched me first then I would definitely fight him. Honestly, I love you more than any other guy/young-man in the world and of course I’m willing to fight to be with you. I hate fighting though, I’ve changed a lot as a person and I’ve only ever been in a couple fights my whole life.
Then, there’s also the possibility that you don’t have feelings for me, you’ve never had feelings for me, and then you could get a restraining order against me or something which would my worst fucking nightmare.
Then, there’s also the possibility that I tell you I love you in person and then neither of those above things happen but you’d break-up with your boyfriend and tell me you love me back after all these years and then we’d start dating (maybe after some time). This would be ideal. No one has to get hurt (I’m sure you’re boyfriend would be fine). Everyone’s happy. This would be a dream-like scenario in my opinion.
Then there’s also the possibility that I tell you I love you and in person and none of those above three things happen but you reject me and my trip to your University/all these years I’ve spent loving you and caring about you would be a waste of time.
I don’t know how I’d react if you told me through a phone-call or in real-life that you don’t have feelings for me. I don’t know if I’d be able to believe you. This whole situation is just so unbelievable to me and it’s really hard.
I don’t know what to do. I really don’t. I just want to be with you. I just want you to be my girl, to be my woman.
I love you with all my heart M and I’ll always love you.
I really want to post your full first name (and last) on this site and just post a letter like this:
Dear _________ ______
I love you.
– ____ _______
I might do it. I want the whole world to know I love you even if you don’t love me.
I will always love you M.
I wish you felt the same way…
If you’re on this site, obviously I still have hope you and I will be together in the future.
I miss you so much.
This is such bullshit…
I’ll always love you M.