I’ve never fallen so deeply into despair like I did at Ball. I can’t believe how three people can have such an effect on me. And I can’t believe that none of my friends saw it. I even had to hide it for one so that she could fall over and vomit and make an absolute fool of herself while I’m here trying not to jump into the harbor and drown myself.
You all left my in the heart of the city, you all know that I am from the country. You knew I was having a bad time. I knew I should have went home but who would take care of my bumbling, bleeding and idiotic friend? Why is it always me that the responsibility falls onto?
Last night was supposed to be my time to shine. I needed to show those people that I am better than them. That is not what I expected at all I didn’t get my chance. All that money, all that time that I invested in it, the confidence I had, was all wasted.