What we have is exciting! It is fun, a thrill, a fantasy.
A secret person out there that you connect with,
an understanding ear that is always willing to hear you,
a neutral companion who never angers or grudges or farts.
It’s easy for me to be perfect for you and for you to be perfect for me.
We do not see each’s daily anger or melancholy.
Nor live through the indignity of bad tempers
Nor lament through the others pathetic mistakes.
As long as our secret remains secret we remain pure and innocent.
But secrets have a cost.
A price we pay every time we unintentionally compare,
A price we pay every time we long for our distant companion,
A price we pay with the very soul of the relationships that we are in…
Yes, secrets have a price
And my bill just came and demanded full payment.
It was a cost that I realised is much more than I am willing to pay.
A cost that is the very core of my happiness, the very life of my soul,
the very soul of my relationship.
Yes, secrets have a price and the bill will always need to be paid.
I can no longer hold you in my heart precious one,
I do not know how to be here while my mind is there.
I can no longer be with you beloved one
I do not know how to neglect the one who loves me here, and trusts me, and lives for me here, while you are there
with someone who loves you there and trusts you and lives for you there.
It is greedy to want more when I already had so much,
It would be foolish to lose so much that is real
So much that is good and true and pure.
For a distant fantasy, a feeble thrill, a connection that was.
So this is my fare well my sweet peach.
The last tenderness I can muster for you,
The last time I call you my sweet chocolate covered strawberry flavoured peach.
The last time I claim you as mine.
The next time we meet will be by coincidence,
You will smile and nod in recognition,
I will smile and nod in recognition
And we will pass each other silently
now strangers who once were friends.