We’ve been friends for two years now, I never thought I would feel this way for you. I denied any feelings I had for you when you first confessed that you had feelings for me. I told you I didn’t want you as a boyfriend. I’m so sorry for that, I just don’t want to lose you. You’re my best friend and I have never had such a strong connection with anyone. I’m so afraid to lose this.
You say we won’t work and that maybe in the future we can be something.
We agreed to stay friends, always platonic.
But then I kissed you and kissing has never felt as electrifying as it does with you. We did this over and over again and would reassure each other “this is not serious, its just casual.”
Well i am so tired of pretending I’m okay with having this casual intimacy with you. You are much more important to me and you can’t deny that when we’re together there is so much love that it’s overwhelming in the best way. (and not just in bed)
I’m tired of repressing the fact that Im in love with you and I don’t want to hear your sugar-coated rejection anymore. I just want you to know how I feel about you.
I want you to know that i enjoy sitting in silence with you, I enjoy going to breakfast, sleeping, studying, playing video games, and having conversations about our fears and dreams.
You are the perfect person for me and you deserve to know this.
I can’t bear losing you, but I also cannot bear to live with the regret of not telling you that I am completely in love with you…