Despite not really hearing from you since, those times where we kind of bump into each other, still give me some hope, that you do still care, deep down.
I do really miss you, you probably think that I shouldn’t and should just get on with my life.
I am doing that, but I can’t help to think what things would be like if a didn’t = b or a didn’t occur at all. I am aware that I make mistakes, stupid mistakes.. Really stupid mistakes.. Although, I am really trying.
I would do anything, if I could make you see that.
Please don’t worry, I will stay away as i do really care about you, therefore if you’ve asked me to do something then I will respect that.
I don’t even really know where I’m going with this. I guess I just want someone to listen. I’ve realised so many things in such a short period of time, things that you can only realise to truly understand – things that can’t be told. E.g. How people are based on who’s currently around in their life, addictions = ways of coping, being loud = way of concealing deeper emotions, being quiet = offers protection from being hurt.
I am a deep thinker, sometimes I know I do overanalyse things and should just relax. I’m really sorry.
I was hurt in the past which has made it difficult to let go of things and trust. Although I do trust you.
I really care about you and I’m so sorry.