Well first off, I love you and that will never change.
Secondly, I’m not as strange you think I might be..
I don’t feel this way about any other female in the world. I suppose if you’ve never had feelings for me then I could see why you might think I’m weird or creepy. Though, I’m really not..
See, growing up I always wanted to fit in, yet I hated to conform and I never wanted to be perceived as ‘normal’ by other people. In a way, I set myself apart like this.
I’ve always been very introverted; in fact, I’m the most introverted person I’ve ever known. I love spending time alone. That being said, I know you’re very extroverted; we’re definitely opposites in a lot of ways..
You’ve told me I’m weird in the past and you’ve said similar stuff to another person (or other people) about me. The thing is, you don’t even know me. Nobody knows me. Don’t believe everything you hear either; people love to spread lies. I don’t believe everything I’ve heard about you, even if they might be true.
I think you’re perfect and I love you passionately. Yeah, I barely know you, but I definitely love you and you’re definitely perfect; I could tell you that just from the eye contact when we met. Honestly, I feel like I know you really well but at the same time, barely.
Yeah, I’m different; I definitely have a dark sense of humor, I’m impulsive, quirky, very reserved, quiet, old-fashioned, and I’m fascinated by a lot of peculiar things in life. For example, death fascinates me, mental illnesses fascinate me, drugs fascinate me, etc..Though, there’s nothing wrong with that..I’m just a very inquisitive person when it comes to almost anything…
I used to think I was an “introverted cerebral narcissist” with maybe some extroverted and somatic narcissistic traits as well; basically, these people think they’re superior because of their intelligence, they’re often quiet, and they often have a lot of problems in their life because of their complex. But, just so you know, I’m definitely not a narcissist. I’m still quiet around strangers, but it’s not because I’m anxious or shy, most of the time it’s because I simply don’t want to talk. I may have some narcissistic traits or tendencies but overall I’m a good person and I have a good heart.
But you? You’re perfect. I used to think you might be an ‘extroverted somatic narcissist’ possibly with some introverted and cerebral narcissism as well, but not anymore. I mean, yeah you’re beautiful, you have this amazing confidence, and maybe you have some narcissistic traits or tendencies but that’s what makes you perfect. You KNOW you’re amazing, and so do I.
And honestly, part of why I love you is because when I looked into your eyes for the first time, I saw a part of me. I saw the part of me that is inside you. I also think you saw something in me when we first met, perhaps it was part of you? In my eyes, you’ve always been very overt with how you deal with your emotions while I was very covert; though, now I think our roles have reversed a bit in that sense.
In the past, I honestly thought we could read each other’s minds and it was amazing. Truthfully, I’ve never felt more ‘one’ with a human being than I have when I was around you.
Yeah, you say you’ve never had romantic feelings for me…. Well, that’s something that’s really easy to say through text. I’d like to see you say that to my face…but I know you never would, because you’re scared…..and really, that’s what hurts the most….
Also, I know I didn’t say ‘I love you’ in person but I would kill for that opportunity. I know for a fact I’m an amazing person. You probably do too, you just don’t want to see it..
I will ALWAYS love you…