• See..

    by  • July 25, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Abuse • 9 Comments

    Well first off, I love you and that will never change.

    Secondly, I’m not as strange you think I might be..

    I don’t feel this way about any other female in the world. I suppose if you’ve never had feelings for me then I could see why you might think I’m weird or creepy. Though, I’m really not..

    See, growing up I always wanted to fit in, yet I hated to conform and I never wanted to be perceived as ‘normal’ by other people. In a way, I set myself apart like this.

    I’ve always been very introverted; in fact, I’m the most introverted person I’ve ever known. I love spending time alone. That being said, I know you’re very extroverted; we’re definitely opposites in a lot of ways..

    You’ve told me I’m weird in the past and you’ve said similar stuff to another person (or other people) about me. The thing is, you don’t even know me. Nobody knows me. Don’t believe everything you hear either; people love to spread lies. I don’t believe everything I’ve heard about you, even if they might be true.

    I think you’re perfect and I love you passionately. Yeah, I barely know you, but I definitely love you and you’re definitely perfect; I could tell you that just from the eye contact when we met. Honestly, I feel like I know you really well but at the same time, barely.

    Yeah, I’m different; I definitely have a dark sense of humor, I’m impulsive, quirky, very reserved, quiet, old-fashioned, and I’m fascinated by a lot of peculiar things in life. For example, death fascinates me, mental illnesses fascinate me, drugs fascinate me, etc..Though, there’s nothing wrong with that..I’m just a very inquisitive person when it comes to almost anything…

    I used to think I was an “introverted cerebral narcissist” with maybe some extroverted and somatic narcissistic traits as well; basically, these people think they’re superior because of their intelligence, they’re often quiet, and they often have a lot of problems in their life because of their complex. But, just so you know, I’m definitely not a narcissist. I’m still quiet around strangers, but it’s not because I’m anxious or shy, most of the time it’s because I simply don’t want to talk. I may have some narcissistic traits or tendencies but overall I’m a good person and I have a good heart.

    But you? You’re perfect. I used to think you might be an ‘extroverted somatic narcissist’ possibly with some introverted and cerebral narcissism as well, but not anymore. I mean, yeah you’re beautiful, you have this amazing confidence, and maybe you have some narcissistic traits or tendencies but that’s what makes you perfect. You KNOW you’re amazing, and so do I.

    And honestly, part of why I love you is because when I looked into your eyes for the first time, I saw a part of me. I saw the part of me that is inside you. I also think you saw something in me when we first met, perhaps it was part of you? In my eyes, you’ve always been very overt with how you deal with your emotions while I was very covert; though, now I think our roles have reversed a bit in that sense.

    In the past, I honestly thought we could read each other’s minds and it was amazing. Truthfully, I’ve never felt more ‘one’ with a human being than I have when I was around you.

    Yeah, you say you’ve never had romantic feelings for me…. Well, that’s something that’s really easy to say through text. I’d like to see you say that to my face…but I know you never would, because you’re scared…..and really, that’s what hurts the most….

    Also, I know I didn’t say ‘I love you’ in person but I would kill for that opportunity. I know for a fact I’m an amazing person. You probably do too, you just don’t want to see it..

    I will ALWAYS love you…

    Always..

    <3

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    9 Responses to See..

    1. i wish
      July 25, 2015 at 4:25 pm

      I wish this was from him. It would be the most perfect words to describe us I’ve seen yet. But it can’t be, because if someone makes you feel this when you look in their eyes no matter what situations or obstacles are in the way you fight heaven & hell to tell them even if it’s not returned right?So it can’t be, I’ve never gotten so much as a hint after all I’ve opened up & poured my damaged pathetic soul to him. So I’ve burried this away & am moving away for a new start he doesn’t know about. I hope it works out for you stranger, because these feelings don’t happen often in this life time & it is a priceless rarity in my opinion this best kind of connection with someone there is. *hugs*




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    2. Bundle
      July 25, 2015 at 5:52 pm

      WTF?




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    3. Author
      July 26, 2015 at 1:18 am

      @ I wish

      Thanks, that’s nice of you to write.

      @ Bundle

      What? I know this is kind of a strange letter but it’s how I feel.

      Her and I will never be together and I think I’ve that’s something I just have to accept.

      I do love her and I’ll always love her but I can’t keep doing this to myself.

      I know she’s into psychology….Part of me thinks that this whole time I was just some kind of social experiment of hers. Part of me thinks she likes to see me hurt and she was playing with my heart this whole time. And honestly, if that was the case then that’s extremely fucked up.

      The other part of me thinks she cares about me just as much as I care for her. Maybe not romantically but in a platonic way. I doubt it though…I think she just wants to hurt me. She’d probably kill me if she ever saw me in person. She probably wants me dead….hah…

      Still, I’ll always love her. ๐Ÿ˜›

      <3




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    4. Author...also
      July 26, 2015 at 9:57 pm

      If she happens to be on this website then I want to say thank you.

      Thank you for everything. Also, I’m sorry, for everything. You will always be number one in my heart, mind, and soul.

      You’re everything to me and you mean the world to me.

      I love you so much…

      Always

      <3




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    5. Author...
      July 27, 2015 at 6:37 pm

      Just in case anybody who reads this is wondering, I’m a virgin and I’m proud.

      I think too many people rush into having sex before they’re ready.

      Honestly, it’s old fashioned but I’d be willing to wait until I’m engaged or married to have sex.

      Also, if the subject of this letter happens to be reading this, I know you lied; I’m not stupid. -_-

      I think she’s scared and only wants to hurt me…

      She can never do anything that would make me fall out of love with her.

      Obviously I care and I will always love her unconditionally, even if she’ll never love me or never has.

      Also, I will record the song I wrote her in due time, but she won’t get to listen to it.

      ๐Ÿ™‚

      (My bad if this is a double post)




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    6. Herb woman
      July 28, 2015 at 1:39 am

      If this is truly that kind of connection, then it always will be…..hope she loves you at least as much as you love her.




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    7. @Herb woman
      July 31, 2015 at 5:57 am

      I will always love her, yes….

      I don’t know how she feels about me though..




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    8. Author
      July 31, 2015 at 7:07 am

      I wrote the @Herb woman comment and I forgot to put ‘Author’ in the name box..

      But thanks Herb woman..

      I wish she loved me like I love her..

      It’s the only thing I’ve ever wished or prayed for and I’m not even religious..

      My heart belongs to her and her only….

      I’ll always love her…even if she doesn’t love me..

      <3




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    9. Please call me MT.
      November 29, 2015 at 4:46 am

      I love you more than life itself.




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