• An Addict’s Heart

    by  • July 25, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 0 Comments

    I can’t give you up.
    I’m addicted.
    You give me just enough to keep me coming back, for which you punish my addiction by beating my psyche.
    You abuse my heart by threatening to leave. And I just can’t handle a day without you.
    When I came to you I was broken, looking for affection. I was fragile and torn, my family ripped apart.
    Having been raised by a mother who taught me that the only beauty came from what was on the outside.
    Having porcelain skin, full lips, an amazing body was something to marvel at.
    Having that mindset does something to a girl, twists her, makes it so she can never truly and fully love herself.
    But you gave me just enough affection.
    Made me feel good.
    So I didn’t mind that you slowly began to control my life.
    I didn’t mind that you only saw me for what was on the outside.
    Because I believed that you saw what was on the inside.
    But you lied.
    Accused me of being unfaithful.
    Even though I was obedient.
    I dropped my all my friendships.
    Threw away my future.
    All to keep being abused.
    To keep you around.
    If not, I go through withdrawals.
    But I’ve gotten smarter.
    And I won’t need you…
    Someday.
    But for right now, abuse my addicts heart some-more my love drug.

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