It’s been exactly 31 days since I’ve seen you.
And things are happening, and they aren’t good.
I’m in another devastating down-swing of limerence.
And it honestly feels incredibly painful, as it does during every low.
Right now, you are doing things without me. Inviting my friends to go, and forgetting my existence.
None of them have even made a single effort to contact me and I am confused as to why? Why haven’t you contacted me? To see how I am? Cause trust me, there’s a lot going on right now that I wish I could be telling you about.
I thought I was going to see you last weekend, and I took extra time making myself look nice. I didn’t even realize that I had done it all for you, until I got there and you had already left. Along with anyone else I knew.
I was devastated that I didn’t get to see you. That was when I realized how much I really do miss you and deeply need to see you again very very soon.
I’m so depressed, as downs of the limerence cycle will inevitably bring.
But I can’t stand this pain anymore. So of course I’m plotting and planning my next attempt to become important to you.
I wish you would contact me.
I wish I meant something to you.
Hopefully, someday I’ll be someone that you care enough about to miss.