I know I should have never done it in the first place. I knew that it had the potential to ruin us forever. I never thought I could do such a thing to someone I love so much. I know you hate me and it’s okay cause I hate myself too. I know I lied about it and I know I should have told you the truth. I didn’t want you to hate me and walk out of my life. But I only made it worse. I should have known you would eventually find out. I’m not one for regrets and there aren’t many things I would want to go back and change. But if I was granted to chance to change something, it would be this. I haunts me all the time and it stays in the back of my mind taunting me. I wish I could forget it but I deserve to live with that pain for the rest of my life. Usually you just need your space for a little while and then we talk and work things out but I’m scared that it’s gonna be different this time. Maybe we can’t come back from this. Maybe time will just push you away more. I know our chances of getting back together are slim and that is fine. But this friendship is something I can’t stand to lose. And the worst part is that it is my fault. We had the potential to fix everything and I ruined it. I’ll never forgive myself for what I did to you. I am responsible for my actions and I own up to them. I ruined us and I’m sorry.