• With or without you

    by  • July 20, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 4 Comments

    Nothing hurts as much as loving someone who can’t love themself . Loving someone who inspired you in every way. Who was so fucked up they sank you in a deep world that you can’t never fully recover from because nothing you can do to save them from there own self. I won’t ever feel peace with you and without you also I’m stuck either way . Not having you in my life is gonna be the worst thing in my life because you can’t help what your past has made you and I can’t forgive myself even though I have done nothing wrong. I feel so bad for you that it overweighs my love for you and that’s not good because I hurt more than love . You made my life and at the same time fucked it up. You showed me what love is and showed me pain .sometimes I see how beautiful you are and most times I see your illness and hate it so much because it drains you completely and it’s so sad because if it wasn’t for your past you and me would of been perfect. Who you would iof been. I wish I can change it but not even you can’t.

    4 Responses to With or without you

    1. Starr
      July 20, 2015 at 11:15 am

      The purpose of a soulmate is NOT to be your ideal, picture perfect world… A soulmate will touch your soul & lift you up, yes – But not in the way that you would expect. A soulmate will expose you, tear down your walls, and force you to look in the mirror. You will be confused, caught off guard, and faced with choices to make. Your emotions will be all over the place, and you may end up feeling “stuck”… If you don’t believe me, just take a moment to pretend this is true, and think about how many relationships & connections have been lost/abandoned in this world due to indecision, confusion & avoidance… People constantly run from conflict, run away from the ones they love because they are expecting everything to come easy. But if you truly want to be with your soulmate, then you will be willing to do the work and learn. You aren’t stuck… You have the answers deep down within you, but you must find the courage to reconnect.

    2. AllINeed
      July 20, 2015 at 5:29 pm

      What did the person do to cause you this much?

    3. @Starr
      July 21, 2015 at 3:03 am

      And sometimes you find the courage to reconnect and you wish you never had. Sometimes its a sign of strength to stay away from people who SEEM to be your “soulmate”.

    4. Starr
      July 21, 2015 at 10:21 am

      This can be true as well… but you need to reconnect to find out. And sometimes, reconnecting won’t always be pleasant. Just as people store memory, we also store pain. You cannot and should not expect forgiveness, or a smooth reconnect. You must prepare yourself for the unknown, and be open to whatever the other person is feeling – because it is not all about you. If reconnecting doesn’t result in what you hoped for, at least know that you were willing to take that step to open the door. Sometimes people need time… It may have been a shock to the other person that the door opened and it was you standing on the other side. Give that person time & space to process his/her feelings about that… And try one more time.

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