Nothing hurts as much as loving someone who can’t love themself . Loving someone who inspired you in every way. Who was so fucked up they sank you in a deep world that you can’t never fully recover from because nothing you can do to save them from there own self. I won’t ever feel peace with you and without you also I’m stuck either way . Not having you in my life is gonna be the worst thing in my life because you can’t help what your past has made you and I can’t forgive myself even though I have done nothing wrong. I feel so bad for you that it overweighs my love for you and that’s not good because I hurt more than love . You made my life and at the same time fucked it up. You showed me what love is and showed me pain .sometimes I see how beautiful you are and most times I see your illness and hate it so much because it drains you completely and it’s so sad because if it wasn’t for your past you and me would of been perfect. Who you would iof been. I wish I can change it but not even you can’t.