Well it’s been over a year since we last talked. I was pretty upset with you when you didn’t give me a second chance and I guess I can see why you wouldn’t. I’ve heard you moved back in town and you seem to be doing well. I almost did run into you at HEB one late night but you were with your sister and I don’t think I could handle seeing you still. So instead I put my hat down and turned the other way hoping you didn’t see me. I didn’t want to ruin your evening. so I just left.
I just wanted to say I’m sorry. I’m sorry I said what I said and that I would give anything to see you again and talk to you. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t somehow think of you. But I know you’re not thinking of me. That’s okay. I’ve stayed away for so long because I know it’s best. I can’t help the way I feel about you. I know if I start talking to you again I’ll start to fall for you again. I care about you so much I do what I can to make sure our paths never cross. This way you’re happy and moving on with your life and don’t have to worry about running into me. I moved away from my hometown into my own apartment. It’s nice and everything but still life is just not the same as it was before. I wish you were here with me.
It doesn’t matter how I feel because you’re happy with your life. I’m very glad you’re doing great without me. I know I’m crazy and stubborn to the point where I can’t just forget about you and move on like you did. I guess I’m happy being alone if I’m not with you. I’m not writing this letter in the hopes for people to feel sorry for me. I writing this letter because I had this uncontrollable urge to call you. So if I write this letter you’ll never see it or maybe one day you will and won’t know it’s me. I’m doing okay. I put on a smile every morning and somehow find the strength to push on through. I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again in my life. I hope so and in good circumstances. As long as you’re happy with your life right now I’ll continue to stay far away from you without any struggle. Keep your beautiful blue eyes lit, your smile bright and your future straight ahead.
Thinking of you always Kim. Even when you’re not around your impact on my life keeps me going forward. I’m still waiting.