I feel all alone….After what happened, I just can’t help but feel like no one understands. I feel like crying 95% of the time, but I have to put on a smile and act like eveything is okay. I overthink too much and that just makes everything worse. I wish I didn’t hate myself, but I look at myself and think of all the mistakes I’ve made and what’s happened in the last year and I just can’t think of a moment that I was really, truly happy. I pray everyday that I will die…..I don’t know how to ask anyone for help.