If you were imperfect, maybe i could of had a chance. But you’re not, you are perfect.
I know all the things you think of me, telling you i love you when i was with someone.
But i never tried to bed you, i told you because of the fear, fear of never telling you.
For had you actually been with someone, of course i would never have told you, and you were looking. Now maybe you found someone.
Just like you deserve i hope.
I hope he loves you as i do, unconditionally, wakes up beside you ecstatic because he is with you, hears your husky little voice, remember i once said about that to you?
I think you thought i was belittling you, i wasn’t, i think you have the sexiest voice i have ever heard. And it always made me so happy to hear it.
A smile, such a smile, it is like someone turned the sun on in the middle of the darkest storm, and the clouds vanish, birds sing and the air is sweet smelling.
Does he know you are perfect, does he see it?
I hope so.
Will he really lay down and die for you, face his darkest fears for you, i hope so.
You are so amazing you deserve this and more.
I wish i could earn the karma that would see you give me a chance to be in your life again, although i am greedy and selfish so that can never be, greedy and selfish because i truly wish i could tear off this face and be as handsome to you as you are beautiful to me.
Did you really get it? When i look at you, of course there never ever ever could be anyone.
This would sound silly but you know what i’d love, is to be with you and have loads of women come on to me, not for my ego, but so i could say “No thank you, have you seen my wife?” because you know that you are the only one.
I haven’t stopped thinking nor writing about you. I never will, i love you no matter what and i will stop when all awareness of you stops, if it is when i die, then it will be on that day, if we have a soul that lives on, then i will take upon me your sins to see you go only to heaven if you have sinned at all, and i will love eternally.
N. I am here any day any night, any month or year, call,email, whatever, i will run to you.
Always remember you are perfect my darling. Never doubt yourself, all you are is perfect, not just for your phenomenal beauty but your mind too, you deserve to be happy, i hope that you truly are, and me i shall, being selfish, pray and wish every day you could love me, but also, i shall because i love without condition, hope you wake every day, happy and achieving all your dreams.
I love you with all that i am because of all that you are.