Buddying up with someone you think is close to me isn’t the way to get back into my life. Your childish games and cowardice are two of the main reasons I don’t want you in my life. If you want back into my life then face me like a grown woman, tell the truth, take responsibility for what you’ve done and do what you can to make things right and undo as much of the damage as possible. Then and only then will I even consider letting you be a part of my life. Showing the same cowardice you always have sure isn’t the way to do it.
Also she and I aren’t close. I’ve not even seen her in about 20 years, so you’ve latched onto the wrong person. She’s a good person though and doesn’t deserve to be used like you use everyone else. I hope you come to realize what a true friend she can be and don’t just crap on her when you realize she can’t help you get to me or when she cares enough to be honest with you when she see’s you ruining your life rather than cheer on your bad decisions and give you sympathy for the problems you’ve caused yourself, like all the other idiots you surround yourself with who are only using you like you use them.