• why?

    by  • June 28, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Disappointment • 1 Comment

    Dear You,
    I’m still waiting. How pathetic is that? Everyday I wait for a phone call, a text, an email, letting me know that you’re still the person I thought you were. Hoping that one day you’ll come back to me. I’m still confused as to how everything ended up like this. I thought that you loved me. I guess I shouldn’t believe everything someone tells me. To be completely honest I’m going crazy. I’m here pretending to be someone I’m not because I don’t want anyone to know that I still care. Even you. Pretending not to love you is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, but it seems to be effective. I miss you, but I don’t have the guts to tell you. I love you, but I’m scared that you’ll never feel the same way. I hate you, because you broke my heart. I hate myself even more, because even though you put me through all of that, if it was my decision, I’d still take you back. I know that we had our issues that we had to go through, but I’d never thought that it would end like this. For now I still have hope, but over time that might go away. So I hope that you don’t regret anything. I really hope you don’t. Because if you do, that means we had a chance, but you were too late to realize it.

    with all my love and hate,
    Christina

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    One Response to why?

    1. Clever
      June 30, 2015 at 4:30 pm

      You are so clever the way you hook me in with your words. Just be yourself and for once speak your heart and mind to me. I know you feel both love and hate but stop going to the world and voicing that before considering coming to me one on one first. I could reach out a million ways and bring heaven and earth together but I just can’t get through to you, it seems. You have my number, my address, my email, and even my AIM info. The only thing you’re lacking is an excuse to keep avoiding this conversation.




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