• I wish I knew how he would respond.

    by  • June 28, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 0 Comments

    We fell into the closest thing to love that I know at a young age. Look at us now. You are back home enjoying the high school girls drooling over you. The weekend parties with everyone we’ve known since elementary school.
    And I am on the other side of the planet.
    I want to go home, but damn I despise everything there so much. Trying to make friends with strangers in unfamiliar places is rough when I’m so use to familiarity. I miss you however my jealously tells me I know you’re probably inside some younger little tart with a pretty face. No premature wrinkles like me.
    I wonder if you are still the person I loved. If that would ever be able to be fixed. I don’t know. I really don’t know.
    Part of me wants to come home to find out.
    The other part refuses to risk a set back in my self development. I have the opportunity of a life time, I wish you were here to see it. I need to enjoy where I’m at, because it is quite amazing.
    Maybe you’ll be there when I get back. If you are not, that’s okay. I wont stay around that town much anyway.
    The best part is how many amazing things I’ve done and still have to do.
    My life is amazing. I want to share it with you, but I’m still so cold towards you. Haha, I can’t help it. It’s kind of funny how I was so attached to you and then ripped everything off like a band aid.
    I broke your heart and you broke mine: you were right about that. What you don’t know is I’m not that same scared little girl anymore. I’m a woman who has struggles but comes out on top every time.
    You’re part of my story, I’ll never forget you. I hope you are waiting for me but, I know that is too much to ask now.

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