• To you , a man who knocked my wall down

    by  • June 25, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 4 Comments

    I think am such a loser to write something like this instead of just telling you straight away, but I can’t because it is hard for me to just talk about my feelings like that. I just want to say thank you for everything you gave me, for your support and for your shoulders and countless hands you’ve offered me since the day we started talking to each other. I’m not gonna lie that you are the only person in this whole entire world who gets me so much even more than I did. Being with you is the most amazing gift god ever gave to me and I just want to let you know that you are the best thing that ever happened in my life. But I just can’t, not that I can’t continue our relationship because trust me this is what I want the most. But i’m broken, and I can’t seem to put my pieces back all together again because it has been that way for a pretty long time and I got used to it and I have accepted the fact that no one will ever love me long way before you came to my life. But then you happen, you happened when i’m trying to put all my broken pieces all together again. You are a surprise for me from God, beautiful surprises. But I feel like i’m not good enough for you and I feel like i’m holding you to be the best version of yourself and I hate that feeling or the way my brains think. You’re funny, you’re talkative, you are confidence, you got everything and i’m sure you can get any girl you want with lots of your quality that’s why i’m afraid of losing you. That’s why I never actually love you even though I said it to you. That’s why I never really opened my heart to you because I know you. Because you told me about your everything and because I know you get the power to shrink me down I never actually let you in. I never actually loved you as you think you are. Because I always braved myself for the goodbye and I always think that you’re actually just playing with me because i’m fool and dumb. Because if I actually give my heart you and when you finally decided that you’re bored with me and start looking for another girl who is way more interesting and beautiful. Where will that left me if you do? I’m just too much work for you because i’m broken and who’s gonna love a girl who can’t even love and believe in herself? No one! So I let you free. if you are meant to be for me and you actually want me in your life god will show me the way but I’ll warn you that is going to take lots of time for me to actaa8let you in and if you want to do that I will appreciate it and if you won’t its okay I get used to it bi know i’m selfish and it’s all because I don’t want to lost another pieces of me again and to get hurt again. That’s it. The words i’ve been dying to tell you because I know you would not like it if I tell you so

    Love you,

    Xoxo<3

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    4 Responses to To you , a man who knocked my wall down

    1. 2TheAuthor
      June 25, 2015 at 12:25 pm

      Loving is always risky! Sis, play your chance and tell him the words you have posted here! Good luck!




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    2. shut up
      June 26, 2015 at 7:15 am

      Your letter touched me. Maybe, because I found something. Something that reminded me of something. Something that has nothing to do with you. It is a very selfish thing.

      I’m gonna write as if I knew…

      “I just want to let you know that you are the best thing that ever happened in my life”

      Sounds good so far…

      “I never actually loved you as you think you are. Because I always braved myself for the goodbye and I always think that you’re actually just playing with me because i’m fool and dumb. Because if I actually give my heart you and when you finally decided that you’re bored with me and start looking for another girl who is way more interesting and beautiful. Where will that left me if you do? I’m just too much work for you because i’m broken and who’s gonna love a girl who can’t even love and believe in herself? No one! So I let you free.”

      No one said anything, right? It was just you, right? You say good bye before you said hello. Letting them free… Wow, it sounds so nice… Letting them free??? You don’t dare to think of anything good. It is NOT NICE… and you know it… but you don’t care…




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    3. shuts up again
      June 26, 2015 at 7:21 am

      not to you.
      Just think.. Think…




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    4. If only
      July 3, 2015 at 12:19 pm

      If only you were
      She who only once in the last 17 years admitted her true feelings
      To a degree we are all broken but sometimes those whom have the ability to make us whole again, either don’t believe in themselves enough or cannot see all it takes is a little TLC for us to shine again.
      Hope you find a way to pick up the pieces and shine




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