Miss you. It’s been too long.
Part of me just does not want to let go.
Got a job now. Meeting new girls.
There’s this girl at my church,
I think I like her,
but she is not you.
Lost the motivation to push things further,
every girl I meet that I find attractive,
becomes a fleeting crush that burns out,
long before it could be anything.
My heart is still broken over you,
my spirit is weak, cold and alone.
I miss you so much 🙁
I catch the bus home from work some days,
near where we met up nearly a year ago.
Can’t believe how time flies.
It always stings when I walk through a place,
that is tied to your memory.
Especially in the city.
I just feel so numb.
Clutching at straws,
I was such a fool.
The lessons that I learned from you in my life,
oh how I wish I had learned them,
before you came into my life.
You took a huge chunk of my heart with you, L.
A big part of my very identity.
I’m starting to slip back into depression I feel,
got a job, meeting new girls,
things that I thought would help to heal me,
but it’s all a blur,
it means nothing.
There is a massive hole in my life,
that only you could fill.
My love runs so deep for you,
but my heart has frozen,
my veins have frozen,
bitterness has poisoned me,
I fucking miss you so much.
I will continue on my journey,
living my life in numbness,
that you remember me.