• Don’t feel like living

    by  • June 17, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Acceptance • 2 Comments

    I’m getting drunk and crying.

    Friends might not mean a lot to some people but my friends were the most important people in the world to me.

    My friend thinks I’m a liar and that I use them.

    I must be that. I didn’t think I was but I am. I didn’t think that they wanted to know about things I was dealing with and so I didn’t say anything, because they had important stuff going on. and I wanted to help them with it.

    I didn’t think they’d want me to be a creepy oversharer.

    This is my advice from the lesson I failed to learn. If you’re not prepared to tell your friend everything. Don’t have friends. You’ll just hurt them and you.

    Right now, I feel like not a single soul will miss me.

    2 Responses to Don’t feel like living

    1. TLH
      June 18, 2015 at 8:37 am

      I hope the light of day and a sober morning has brought you clearity and hope. I promise there are folks who care about you. You just had a moment…we all have them. Consider getting off your island sometime and communicate your troubles with your true friends. True friends feel trusted when you seek them out for help.

    2. iunderstand
      June 20, 2015 at 5:08 pm

      Lying is never good but you lied for a good reason. Explain that to them, let them know why you did it and how you are sorry about it. Despite their anger, they will understand. It takes time to earn back some trust from close friends but you will eventually have them trust you again. To do that, be honest to them. Tell them the truth. Why you lied. How you thought you were protecting yourself from their judgment somehow. Be strong and never forget, 365 days, 365 new chances. When plan A fails, don’t forget that there are 25 more letters in the alphabet !

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