Somewhere, she’s out there…the one to take my place…she would be a much better mother, daughter, and girlfriend. She wouldn’t be so selfish and ungrateful. Comparatively speaking, my life isn’t so bad. I’m sure I have it pretty good. I feel guilty for wanting more in life. To have a little break from life once in awhile. To be told that I’m beautiful (which clearly I am not) to hear those words of I love you…just once…to be told it is good enough…not put down…question every i do, because no matter what I do…it’s always wrong…to laugh at me when I’m upset…to nag me when I’m already broken…just one break. I don’t deserve a break, I have way more happiness than I deserve. ..which is why I shouldn’t be here…replace me, forget me…I can barely handle another day…and these wonderful people around me deserve so much better.