I couldn’t really think of a better title for this, so I decided to go with the time. Yup, from where I am from it’s currently 11:27pm and yet again, like any other nights I am torturing myself with mellow music and thoughts I never knew I could think of.
I am depressed. Though this is just a self-acclaimed proclamation, but I don’t think you really need to consult a doctor, or a psychiatrist, or a psychologist, or whoever. You just know when you are suffering from one.
I’ve been through a lot of things which I’m sure people have experienced too but I guess the difference between me and them is that I’m not really good in handling situations that are presented to me. And I feel really bad about myself that sometimes I think of doing the unthinkable.
I’ve been shutting people out, building walls, creating gaps. It’s really hard for me to talk about my problems especially since I am known to be cheerful, and optimistic; so I don’t really want them to see this side of me but clearly, all I need is someone I can depend on, lean on. This probably is the reason why I came accross this site. Because I’m longing for someone. Someone who doesn’t know me well enough that would just automatically encourage me to make me feel better. I need someone who would really listen.