• Maybe…

    by  • June 4, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 2 Comments

    it would be different if part of me didn’t think you hated me with a passion.

    It used to be ‘she loves me, she loves me not’. I could handle that.

    Now it feels like ‘she loves me, she hates me’.

    2 Responses to Maybe…

    1. maybe not
      June 5, 2015 at 12:06 am

      Maybe your instinct is right. I met someone like this & couldn’t believe it either. It is confusing until you accept that their mind works differently.

    2. T
      June 5, 2015 at 10:25 pm

      I suspect you feel that way because you have done something to feel like you deserve to be hated. I can see my ex feeling that way, he once told my dog this very thing, lol. . I don’t hate him, he has enough self-hatred of his own. My heart goes out to him, I cried for a month straight, missing what we had in the beginning, missing what I had hoped for before he starting falling apart. I still want what we had…. I still hope and actually daydream about the day he turns it all around, and makes it all up to me like he promised he would. I saw through his hard shell, so many things that should have scared me off, but didn’t, in the end, it was his self-hatred that ultimately tore us apart. I pray in Jesus name that he learns to love himself and life, despite all the hardships along the way.

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