I can’t breathe. I gave my whole self, stupidly to this person. This boy who did not see me as anything more than a body. and he let me, watched me fall for him every day, and walked away holding my heart in his hand. and now every day i have to watch him with her. the girl that brought out a side of him that i never could. i thought i was over it, but once again i find myself awake and sobbing at midnight, wondering why the hell i wasn’t good enough. i was the idiot. i should have stayed away, i knew it the minute i looked at him and felt my heart jump into my throat. and yet, here i am. suffocating. and i know deep down that he’s probably not worth my time and my tears and the little bits of myself that i handed over to him so very graciously, but it doesn’t change the fact that i feel as though I’ve been punched in the gut. can’t sleep. i don’t know why i bother anymore.