I know it is possible to stay positive and live happily. But I just feel too weak and down trodden to make it this year.
I need a helping hand. I need help. I need some genuine care. Not those hypocrites who pretend to be nice to you just because others are watching.
Hypocrites are all around, and the person whom I thought was kind and good is probably just an illusion.
Stranger, I sometimes feel like I will be unable to breathe soon because I am really not fit to stay living in this world.
Have you ever felt the same? What did you do? Sleep it off? Ya. I do. And when you wake up in the morning and remember and feel being wronged, ignored and not being understood, you really find it hard to even uncoil, and the knot in your stomach keeps pulling and throbbing, and when it gets too difficult, you cry. And after you cry, you set off for work and face those hypocrites and wicked people again, and try your best to not to feel anything, and even if you feel something, you tell yourself that it’s just your illusion. You are sick, you hallucinate, you are psychotic. ya. What else can I do?