• Friends with benefits …

    by  • March 19, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 3 Comments

    … But I don’t want to be that any more. I want you with me, us together, but you don’t want that. I love you, but I can’t tell you that … I tried but you said you didn’t want to hear it. I don’t know if you love me, you’ve hinted at it but said you couldn’t bring yourself to say it. Tbh I’m not convinced you actually do. I don’t know what to do or what to say, every time I try to say something serious I make a mess of it or you make fun of me. I want to be able to tell you I love you, I want to hear it back … that’s normal isn’t it with relationships, the feelings get stronger and you share that with each other. I hate it that I can’t share it with you. What’s going to happen with us, do you want it like this forever or do you just see it ending one day? What goes through your mind about it? Why can’t you talk to me about it? Why can’t you love me 🙁

    3 Responses to Friends with benefits …

    1. Confession
      March 20, 2015 at 8:15 am

      Are you both unattached otherwise? If the answer is yes then don’t give up. Write your feelings down, share them. Its worth it. 🙂

    2. Bunny Ears
      March 20, 2015 at 7:13 pm

      I am jaded at friends with benefits in these situations. I believe it is one of the most cruelest relationships to get into as one will always feel more for the other. The intentions are what are at stake and even that he honesty of them can never be trusted. If the person is reciprocal then try but if not then take it for what its worth and move on. No use trying to get through to someone who only sees you as a shoe.

    3. Buttercup
      August 9, 2016 at 8:57 pm

      Yep. And now it’s all over I am still so hurt and confused. The way it ended, how did it become so dramatic? How could he have been so cold, so cruel?

      Looking back I have to wonder, in all the windows between the ten years did I really know him at all?
      Is he really just a cold blooded man who gave me all the wrong signals because he didn’t care so much as to consider my heart? Or was he angry because after our coming together and apart over so many years he expected more this time? Did the whole thing just hurt him too much?

      He doesn’t show any signs of wanting me now and it’s been like this for seven months. Try as I might to let go I can’t shake my feelings for him, I can’t shake the feeling that he did, that he flipped everything on me because he wanted more…

      And if he did want me, if he really was who I once thought he was, is this it? Has he really given up on us – for good?

      I have said so much and yet his dramatic reactions have left me too scared to tell him that things have changed. I have changed. Knowing this as I do, I know for certain things could be different now, if only that what what he really wanted.

      If it meant we could be together again I would commit to a relationship with him. Coz at the end of the day, the only thing I have found myself knowing for sure is that all I want is him. 🙁

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