Hey, Have you ever read this? It said:
“Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.”
So that’s that. It’s been more than a year since I was devastated and broken by you having confessed to myself that after all these years I still love you and I fall for you harder every day. A year after, I am still here loving you like I have never been broken before. Yes, I love you that much that sometimes it hurts me whenever you tell me about the girls you have a crush on or girls you plan to pursue. It hurts more than you could ever imagine but I didn’t care, I listened to you anyway, because again, I love you that much.
Recently, I have been feeling empty. I was occupied too much by academics life that I never had the chance to think about you again. I thought that you weren’t there anymore but at the end of the day, you’re still inside my heart, at the same spot as before. If moving on is an issue here, believe me, I tried.
I tried to stop talking to you. I tried trying to put my best smile in front of you while listening to your stories that did not include me. I tried moving on but as I take a farther step towards moving on, I find myself two steps towards you. So here’s a deal I’ll be making with your invisible self since you won’t be able to read it ever. I will be loving you no matter how long it takes, no matter how much pain you will give me. I will love you until I convince myself that I deserve better than you and if luck’s on my side, before that time comes, time will give us a chance to be better for that.
Until then, I will still always be your best friend.